Only God Knows 🤍

#munnamonday

“Only God knows how bad I wanted it…
and only God knows why I didn’t get it.”

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Only God knows how bad I wanted
that friendship.

That man who didn’t love me.

That career that would’ve made my family proud.

The answers to all the questions that kept me up at night.

The “why’s.”
The “what if’s.”
The “what did I do wrong?”

Only God knows how deeply I held onto things
that were never holding onto me.

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And I think that’s the part we don’t talk about enough.

We talk about faith when things go right.
We talk about gratitude when things work out.

But what about the faith it takes
to accept what didn’t?

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Because I truly believe this:

God doesn’t just see what you ask for…
He sees what it would’ve cost you.

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There are things I begged for
that would’ve broken me in ways I wasn’t ready for.

People I would’ve stayed loyal to
even if it meant abandoning myself.

Situations I would’ve forced to work
just so I could say, “I didn’t give up.”

But God knew.

Even when I didn’t.

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🧠 And this is where it gets deeper.

Your brain is wired for certainty.

It wants closure.
It wants explanations.
It wants things to make sense.

Because uncertainty feels like danger.

So when something ends without answers…
your mind tries to fill in the gaps.

“Maybe I wasn’t enough.”
“Maybe if I tried harder.”
“Maybe I lost something good.”

But what if…

You didn’t lose something good?

You were protected from something misaligned.

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There’s a quote I saw today:

“What’s not meant for you will disappoint you over and over again.”

And that hit me.

Because disappointment isn’t always rejection…

sometimes it’s redirection.

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There comes a point where your strength
is no longer in figuring everything out…

but in not knowing.

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Not knowing why that friendship fell apart.

Not understanding why that man couldn’t love you properly.

Not needing that career to prove anything to anyone.

Not having all the answers…
and still choosing peace.

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🪞 The Philosophy of Letting Go Without Closure

We live in a world that tells us everything should make sense.

That there should always be a reason.
A lesson.
A clear explanation.

But some things in life…

are meant to be felt, not solved.

Not everything will give you closure.
Not everything will come back around.
Not everything will make sense in your timing.

And maybe that’s where faith comes in.

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Because faith isn’t just believing in what you can see…

it’s trusting what you can’t explain.

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There is a version of strength
that doesn’t need answers.

That doesn’t chase clarity.
That doesn’t beg for understanding.

It simply says:

“I trust that what left…
was never meant to stay.”

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And that doesn’t mean it didn’t matter.

That friendship mattered.

That love you gave? It was real.

That desire to make your family proud? That was genuine.

You weren’t wrong for wanting it.

You were human.

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But just because you wanted it…

doesn’t mean it was meant for you.

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Sometimes God removes things
not because you weren’t enough…

but because it wasn’t aligned with who you’re becoming.

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And maybe the reason it hurt so much
is because you were trying to hold onto something

that your soul already knew
you had outgrown.

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🌙 Learning to Be Okay Without Knowing

This is the hardest part:

Letting go of the need to understand everything.

Sitting in the space of:
“I don’t know why this happened…
but I trust that it needed to.”

That’s a different kind of peace.

Not loud.
Not obvious.

But steady.

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Because the truth is…

You don’t need every answer to move forward.

You don’t need closure to heal.

You don’t need validation to let go.

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You just need to trust
that God sees what you don’t.

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And maybe one day, it will all make sense.

Or maybe it won’t.

But either way…

you’ll be okay.

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“Only God knows what I prayed for…
and only God knows why He said no.”

And I’m learning to trust that
His “no” is not rejection…

it’s protection.

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with love always,

Munna 💌